My Story: Getting Bullied&The Outcome

As the title states im going to be telling you about a huge part in/of my life, bullying, i shall shorten it so you dont have to read like, a 100 book story. I was bullied from a young age, about 7/8 years old, when it all started people in my classes called me 'gay' a huge word in my life but at that age i never understood or knew what it meant, why would you call an 8 year old gay? or any other name?. Now of course i didn't see it as bullying, then, but as i gradually grew older i started to understand more and more. The bullying continued throughout school. It was getting worse and worse, i told teachers, they didn't do anything, i told my parents, they told me to ignore them, why wasn't anyone helping me? i had no friends or really anybody to speak to about my problems(i was 8 and had problems to talk about? sounds so silly because that shouldn't have to happen!, 8 year olds shouldn't have to be put through this, nobody should!!). i got to the last couple of years in primary school and i made a little group of friends who i dont speak to anymore, but things were still the same.

High school came along and it was time to leave all the bully's behind, well, that's what i thought. Except there was tripple the bully's at high school. Much older and bigger than me and even the same ages as me. It started all over again, i never fitted in at all, never had friends, the bullying only got worse i got called every name you can think of, i got pushed in the corridor, but i stayed strong i told everyone i was fine, i told my mum and dad when i got home i had a good day, i swept all my emotion and problems under the carpet and forgot about them until i went to sleep at night, playing in my head how tomorrow will go, how everything might be fine and they might just leave me alone, they didn't. 

As i got older i wanted to express myself  bit more, so i started to wear makeup (because as you know i love makeup and fashion etc), because as you know it says no wear in a rule book or law that boys cant wear it aswell, its not just for girls, so you could probably imagine the outcome of that, but as i said, i stayed strong and i never, let anyone faze me, i kept my head up when it was nearly impossible to, but as i got stronger, but so did the bully's. It got to about 3rd year and i had loads of friends, but of course i was still bullied, my confidence was down at 0, my self esteem was at 0 everything about me was just at a 0, my life officially became hell on earth, everything except my hope which was at 100. By 4th year i had an amazing group of friends and an amazing bestfriend who to this day i love and adore and still see!, i honestly wouldn't be the person i am now if it wasn't for her!, barely anyone bullied me at all!! they finally gave up and realised that i was stronger than them, of course people still call me names and sniggers (giggles) at me now, but i will never let that bother me again, i see countless tweets about me, statuses about me, people giving me weird looks, but the difference to now and then is that my confidence is at 100, my self esteem is at 100 and my life could not get better! where are the bully's now? well their probably tweeting about and bullying other people. and i really hope the victims of bullying sees this because im not going to sugar coat this, your life will be hell BUT, only if you make it that way! dont let them bring you down, tell someone. If that doesn't work there are plenty other ways, but that will be in a future blog post.

Now in conclusion, you've heard about my story and trust me its alot worse than what ive just said, that was only the tip of a huge iceberg. Some of you can probably relate and if your going through this, right as you're reading this then stay strong dont let them ruin your life, like they ruined mine, You're worth so much more and if you can get through it, you can get through anything! and to the bully's who probably will read this aswell, please stop bullying!!, we dont deserve it. Were only trying to be ourselves, why bully us for that? why dont you join us? be yourself? because there isn't anything better than being yourself and being comfortable within yourself!, none of you are alone:)

Stay Strong&Positive!<3